Tragedies & Triumphs
People triumph over tragedy by creating tiny triumphs that together overcome the tragedy. Paula Kramer triumphed over several tragedies. Paula uses what she learned from triumphing over tragedy to help other people transform their lives. If Paula’s tiny triumphs could transform her tragedies into satisfying successes, your tiny triumphs can transform your difficulties into satisfying successes.
The Tragedies of Paula’s Life
Paula’s mother tried to kill Paula first physically, then mentally and emotionally. She would tell Paula she could have or do something she wanted, then take it away so she could watch and listen to Paula cry.
A childhood injury to Paula’s spine was misdiagnosed for 33 years, leaving Paula disabled as an adult. Sitting and standing normally became more and more painful. The more Paula stood and sat normally, the more sitting and standing normally became painful. The more painful sitting and standing normally became, the more difficulty Paula had earning money.
Paula’s husband killed himself 2 feet away from Paula when their daughter was 8 months old.
The death of Paula’s husband left Paula a disabled single parent. She experienced long periods of inadequate medical care. Paula’s daughter did not always have the health care she needed. Paula and her daughter frequently lived without enough food or heat and endured panic when they did not have enough money to pay their bills. As a little girl Paula’s daughter would say, “Of course I can’t have…” and “Of course I can’t do…”
Paula’s 5 siblings mostly ignored what she said about herself, discounted what she accomplished, and treated her like a trespasser in their lives. Paula’s siblings ignored all of her daughter’s tears.
Paula’s father loved her, but became an alcoholic so he could endure decades of emotional abuse from Paula’s mother. He was unable to recognize how badly his wife hurt all of their children.
Paula has lived with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) for decades.
Paula Needs Respect
Paula lists the tragedies of her life only so you can understand her triumphs.
Paula does not talk about her husband’s death. Paula occasionally mentions her husband if something about his life fits a point of conversation. This is not an invitation to ask questions about her husband. Never ask Paula questions about her husband. Never bring up Paula’s husband in conversation. Respect Paula’s need to limit any conversation about her husband.
See the Grief Page for examples of what to say and what not to say to people who are grieving.
Paula’s Triumphs Over Tragedy
Triumph over the cycle of abuse handed down from her maternal grandmother to her mother to herself
Paula had to spend her childhood living with a mother who tried to kill her twice. To survive, Paula separated her memories of being murdered into different physical, mental, and emotional pieces. The continuing effort to keep the memory pieces separate was exhausting. When Paula felt overwhelmed by that effort, she screamed at her daughter. When Paula felt overwhelmed for days or weeks, she screamed at her daughter for days or weeks. Eventually, Paula spent 5 years in therapy with 2 different therapists. She also began talking to friends about her childhood. Although her therapists helped her, Paula’s friends provided insights that her therapists missed.
Holding her own during therapy by refusing to accept both therapists’ diagnosis that she did not like herself.
Taking what was good from therapy and combining it with the insights of her friends.
Putting together the separate physical, mental, and emotional pieces of her life into a whole that explained everything
After Paula faced the truth that her mother tried to kill her, the overwhelming stress behind her screaming at her daughter mostly disappeared. Paula has screamed only twice in about twenty years, when flashbacks to her childhood brought back the overwhelming stress. Paula is now her daughter’s favorite shopping partner.
Triumph over 25 years of compulsive overeating
Because she feared her feelings might get her killed, Paula began eating compulsively at age 14 to keep her feelings buried. After her husband died and Paula was living on her own, she began writing letters to the editor about poverty and other issues. Paula wrote letters fairly regularly for 9 years. After the first few years, Paula noticed that her compulsion to stuff herself with food had lessened. She knew she was eating less because of the letters, but did not understand why. Before the end of the 9 years, the compulsion to stuff herself had disappeared completely. About a decade later when Paula learned about DISC behavior styles and Spranger values, she realized that writing those letters had satisfied her guiding value passions. By satisfying her needs and passions, Paula opened a door that gave other people opportunities to satisfy her behavior style needs.
Each letter to the editor
Each positive response to her letters
See the Smiles Spark Success Page for more information about DISC behavior styles and Spranger values.
Triumph over pain in her spinal injury
During her talks and workshops, Paula often tells audiences that her spine was injured when a boy in school pulled her chair out from under her. She asks her audiences to tell any children in their lives to never pull chairs out from under anyone. After a talk to businesswomen, a nurse in the audience came up to Paula. The nurse gave Paula the correct diagnosis for her injury and recommended the correct treatment to end the pain. Paula got the recommended treatment, finally ending 33 years of pain in her spine.
However, because the misdiagnoses went on for decades, other problems developed. When the boy pulled the chair out from Paula, she landed hard on her tailbone. Thirty-three years later, the nurse in her audience told Paula that her spinal cord had tensed up when she hit the floor. Every time Paula did something that hurt her spinal cord, the tension in her spinal cord increased. The tension in her spinal cord pulled her pelvis further and further backwards. Years before Paula finally got the correct diagnosis, an x-ray revealed that Paula had no S curve in her spine. Paula does not know why that medical professional did not make the correct diagnosis from the x-ray.
When Paula finally got the correct treatment for her injury, her pelvis moved back into its proper place. However, every muscle in Paula’s back from her shoulders to her hips suddenly were doing things they hadn’t done for 33 years. The muscles were weak and normal activity was painful. Paula still lived with pain everyday and still had trouble sitting and standing normally. At times, Paula had to take jobs that made her pain worse. For years, Paula wore a back brace everyday.
Paula’s back started improving dramatically in the spring of 2017. Since her injury at 12 years old, Paula has done a variety of aerobic, stretching, and yoga exercises to reduce her muscle pain and increase her muscle strength. Paula exercises every day, usually doing some sort of exercise even when she’s sick. In the spring of 2017, Paula added targeted exercises for her abdomen and buttocks. At first, Paula’s muscles could take only one count of each exercise a day. Paula added one count every other month as her muscle strength improved. After six months, Paula was able to get rid of her back brace. Although sitting and standing normally can still leave Paula in pain, it is less pain than she experienced before. Paula added hip exercises in the autumn of 2017, doing one count a day and adding one count every other month. Paula had a little bit of knee pain before starting her targeted exercises. Now she has none.
When Paula’s pelvis was out of place, her hips began shifting out of place as well. Because her back and hip muscles are still weaker than they should be, Paula’s hips still shift out of place. If Paula sits in a chair leading with her left hip, her hips shift out of place. If Paula walks in a clockwise motion, her hips shift out of place. If Paula takes a step to the left while standing, her hips shift out of place. Paula has to think about every move she makes to keep her hips in place. Paula sleeps on a custom built wooden platform with two inches of padding. Anything softer would shift her hips out of place.
In case you were wondering, Paula has not seen a medical professional for her back since she finally got the correct treatment for her spinal injury. She has trust issues with medical professionals. The last diagnosis Paula received was that her pain was emotional and if she just kept doing what hurt, her pain would go away.
Finding ways to do talks in spite of the pain in her spine.
Giving someone else a reason to help her.
Developing her own exercise routine to improve the strength of her back muscles.
Making her knees pain free.
Triumph Over Poverty
Before finally getting the correct diagnosis and treatment for her spinal injury, Paula could sit and stand normally only for short periods of time. During the 32nd year of the pain in her spine, Paula began to sit on a low chair at home with her feet on a stool. The only way she could sit without pain was to put her feet at the same level as her head. Away from home, Paula sat on a chair with her back pillow while resting her feet on another chair, or sat on the floor with her back pillow up against a wall.
During the 33rd year of the pain in her spine, Paula began carrying a cane whenever she had to be out in public. She did not need the cane for walking. Instead, she needed the cane to lean on if she had to stand. By then, standing normally for just 2 minutes left Paula in excruciating pain. In stores, Paula could lean on shopping carts and against counters and shelves. She had little to lean against in places like parks. Paula carried the cane with her so she could lean forward on it and reduce the pain she felt from having to stand.
At first, Paula survived on Social Security Survivors Benefits because she was a widow. After her Social Security payments ended, Paula survived financially only because her teenage daughter worked as many hours as she could to support them. Her daughter had started buying food and paying bills with her first babysitting job at the age of 10. Paula filled in financial gaps with credit cards until she could no longer make the payments and had to declare bankruptcy.
After receiving the correct diagnosis and treatment, Paula was able to earn money again, but her choices were still limited. Because the original injury to her spine had gone untreated for 33 years, other problems developed. She still experiences some pain every day. However, Paula eventually found a way to earn money that left her in minimal pain. Paula works on her writing every day, including holidays.
Paying bills as Paula and her daughter were able to.
Finding ways to stay healthy despite living without any kind of health coverage for almost 20 years.
Triumph over being ignored, discounted, and treated as a trespasser by her siblings
Paula felt like a trespasser in her own family. She was afraid to further the trespasser feeling by sitting differently from her family. She endured the pain of sitting in normal chairs with her feet on the ground because her mother and siblings discounted the pain in her spine. Her back pillow eased the pain somewhat, but not completely. Paula rarely went to public places with her family, because she rarely did anything with them.
Early one holiday season, Paula asked her older sister if she could come for Christmas. After some hemming and hawing, her older sister said she did not have “enough space” for Paula and her daughter. After his first child was born, her first brother did not want Paula and her daughter to visit to meet his new baby. When Paula’s financial difficulties became severe, her second sister refused Paula’s request for a loan, telling Paula she needed to work on “long term solutions” instead. Long term solutions meant Paula should stop exaggerating about her back and go out and get a job. Her second brother ignored every letter or card Paula sent him for about ten years. Her third sister lived in another country for a number of years, but never informed Paula of her return visits to the United States. The siblings based all of their decisions about Paula on the false beliefs behind stereotypes rather than on the details of reality.
Since Paula’s siblings refused to help a trespasser, Paula had to find help elsewhere. She looked for faith in her abilities and support for her efforts from people who ignored stereotypes and looked at the details of reality. Paula once loved her siblings. After they repeatedly proved that they did not care whether Paula and her daughter were healthy and alive, Paula no longer cares about her siblings getting sick and dying.
Linda Behling Raap of the Wisconsin Division of Vocational Rehabilitation (DVR) provided Paula with college tuition. John Timcak at the University of Wisconsin-Stevens Point provided Paula with a chair adapted to reduce her pain. Together they made it possible for Paula to earn a B.A. in Women’s Studies/Writing. Paula went on to earn an M.A. in Communication.
Linda Behling Raap and Julie Jensen of the DVR started Paula on the path that would allow her to make her documentary and publish her books.
Jerry Reckner of Associated Speakers recommended that Paula learn about DISC behavior styles. Paula did so and discovered she had a talent for analyzing both behavior styles and guiding values. She is in the process of writing a book to help people understand how DISC behavior styles and Spranger guiding values affect their success and relationships.
Dozens of ordinary people and a few well known people — many of them strangers — agreed to interviews or use of video footage for her documentary, Renewing Energies: The Ingredients for Spectacular Success, and interviews for her book, From Pyramids To Circles: Shaping Groups To Succeed.
Friends, acquaintances, coworkers, nonprofits, businesses, and strangers too numerous to list provided Paula with emotional, financial, professional, and other types of support through many difficult times.
However, Paula would like to publicly thank Kathleen Hanold. Paula did not have the money to pay for the treatment that ended the pain in her spine. Paula told Kathleen she had finally found a treatment that sounded like it would end the pain in her spine. She told Kathleen she planned to get the treatment after she saved up for it. Kathleen said, “Oh, why don’t I just give the money.”
It is people like Kathleen Hanold who made it possible for Paula to show you how to create tiny triumphs for yourself. Paula expresses her heartfelt thank you to Kathleen and to everyone else who gave her opportunities to create more tiny triumphs that added up to significant successes.
Presenting herself and her work in ways that proved her abilities
Persevering in spite of frequent difficulties
Using some of the support other people offered in ways that suited her talents rather than their expectations
Triumph over PTSD
After decades of wondering if she would finally be able to feel safe after her mother died, Paula accidentally found her safety experience. Paula writes about this on the Murder Secret Families page.
Knowing how to wash away the terror.
Feeling safe for at least a few hours everyday.
Giving other PTSD sufferers steps for finding their own safety experiences.
Tragedy Affects Generations
Paula’s mother and siblings as well as various organizations and professionals refused to believe that Paula was disabled and had difficulty earning money. Paula’s father died before her back problems became seriously disabling. Because few people were willing to help, Paula had to feel the heartbreak of watching her daughter endure hunger, cold, health problems, loneliness, and increasing stress. Paula’s daughter had to start buying food and paying bills when she was 10 years old and got her first babysitting job. At age 16, her daughter got a job at a fast food restaurant so she could earn as much money as possible to keep them from becoming homeless. At age 17, Paula’s daughter said, “I don’t understand. I thought family was supposed to help.”
Her daughter was under so much stress that Paula asked someone she thought was a friend for a loan. Paula wanted to give her daughter a break from working as much as possible for 7 years of her childhood. The friend knew Paula had a serious back problem. Horrified at Paula’s request, the “friend” told Paula to “Go out and get a job!” Although the “friend” had no children of her own, she assured Paula that her daughter would be fine.
Paula’s daughter has not been “fine” in the way the “friend” assured Paula she would be. Paula’s daughter faced difficulties she would not have faced if other people cared. Because Paula was the only person in the world who cared that her daughter had spent her childhood earning as much money as possible, Paula’s daughter got no break. A continually stressful childhood creates health problems in adulthood. Paula’s daughter endured one health problem after another for several years as an adult. Because of noncancerous in two of her vertebra, Paula’s daughter had to withdraw from college. She had to change her life plans. After two years of medical professionals refusing to believe what my daughter said about her pain, we finally found a doctor who would treat her. That treatment took several years to reduce the pain, but finally my daughter’s life is better. During all those years of their mother’s pain, my grandchildren endured their own stress and deprivations.
Since Paula’s daughter was lonely for contact from Paula’s family as a child, she contacted them as an adult. Paula’s mother and siblings did nothing to make her daughter’s difficult life easier. Paula’s mother and siblings ignored the difficulties for a second generation of children growing up with a mother who lived with pain in her spine.
Paula Kramer writes in detail about her family relationships to help other people avoid making the mistake she made. Paula’s mistake was believing she could someday do just the right thing that would please her mother and siblings, convincing them to make Paula feel loved and included.
It was never going to happen.
Paula’s mother and siblings stereotyped Paula negatively. Their negative stereotypes about Paula gave them the ability to create positive stereotypes about themselves. In order for Paula’s mother and siblings to see Paula as she really is, they would also have to see themselves as they really are. They prefer their stereotypes. Paula wasted decades of her life trying to please her mother and siblings when pleasing them was never possible. Paula wants to help other people avoid wasting their lives trying to please people who will never let go of their stereotypes. She uses examples from her family relationships to get people thinking about their own family relationships.
Paula’s mother was callous, cold, and distant all of Paula’s life. Paula witnessed her mother’s repeated callousness towards others, especially her father. Yet Paula wasted four decades of her life trying to please her mother before she finally understood that her mother had never loved her and never would love her, no matter what Paula did.
I may revise this section as my experiences and observations
add to my understanding.
From my experiences and observations, people enforce failure for four reasons:
Weak ego feelings
Fear of imagined threats
Punishment for imagined wrongs
Threats to their comfort level
Note that the reasons for forced failure often start from feelings and thoughts. Failure enforcers use their feelings and thoughts to keep people “in their place.” Examples of forced failures that could stem from any of those reasons include:
Denial of service
I have endured several kinds of forced failure from people I know well, people I know somewhat, and complete strangers.
In My Family
My mother tried to kill me twice. She saw me as a threat because I was her second daughter instead of her first son. She was raised to believe she could prove her value as a woman only as the mother of a son. To make sure no one would believe me if I ever talked about her crimes, she convinced our family and all of our relatives to ignore what I said and discount what I did. She spent the rest of my childhood punishing me for disappointing her. She would tell me I could have or do something I wanted, then take it away at the last minute.
On My Jobs
Several female coworkers forced failure on me by telling lies to get me fired from two jobs. The first time, a coworker thought I should finish her work for the day so she could leave early. I was finishing my own work of helping someone who could not take care of themselves. Several female coworkers lied to punish me for making the other employee do her own work. That company was later cited for policies that violated laws. In a separate crime, police arrested the director who fired me for forging signatures on legal documents.
The second time, I was just one of many employees fired because of coworker lies. The company had a lying culture. One supervisor told me she had lied to her daughters about her age until they accidentally found out as teenagers. Company supervisors listened to employee lies instead of investigating all sides of any story. When I told other people my story about being fired, I heard story after story of other coworker lies in that company. The other stories came from other victims, a friend of a victim, and a supervisor at a different company.
Community Crony Cliques
~ A community group made up new rules to force failure on me.
~ A man in charge of a community project asked me to participate in that project. When he told the rest of the project participants, every woman involved in the project said they would quit if I participated. At least one of those women was also a member of the community group. Apparently, this woman (Equality Eraser) needs to erase equality for other women to feel good about herself.
If Equality Eraser made a practice of standing in horseshoes, she’d create new opportunities to meet women willing to help her shine. See the links below.
A community banker (Community Banker) tried to force failure on me as a homeowner. Community Banker was willing to let people die so he could force failure on me. He was even ready to let children die.
Unable to get a home equity loan through my bank, I turned to a nonprofit that gave loans to low income people starting small businesses. The process went well until my contact’s supervisor (Stereotyping Supervisor) nixed the loan. She decided I was too old to be successful. Since she hadn’t met me or asked for more information, I sent information to the nonprofit showing the high success rate of women 60 years old or older in my field. The nonprofit stood by its Stereotyping Supervisor.
A former friend decided I did not deserve success. She sold out our friendship of eight years. I met her as a home health caregiver to her husband. The job lasted four and a half years. Status Sellout began leaving the house while I was still there with her husband. When she was gone and her husband slept while I finished up dishes and such, I was virtually alone in her house. After her husband’s death, Status Sellout had me go to her house to take care of her plants and pet while she took trips. I was virtually alone or completely alone in her house hundreds of times over eight years.
During those eight years I:
Taught her how to use her computer.
Helped troubleshoot problems with her computer.
Helped her get vehicles to and from the mechanic.
Placed online orders for her using my credit card.
(She paid me back.)
Took her old medications to a drop off site.
Helped her become emotionally ready for widowhood.
Status Sellout helped me by lending me tools. She offered to lend me a sewing machine, but I never took her up on that offer. She was also generous with garden produce.
Over the course of our friendship, I talked to Status Sellout about my business ambitions. When my computer died in October of 2018, I called Status Sellout to ask if I could use her computer when she wasn’t there to apply for a business grant. My daughter’s house is mostly not quiet. Libraries are distracting. I wanted to be alone because I write better without distraction and I had never written a grant. Status Sellout responded with, “If you think I’m going to give you money…” I had used the words “computer” and “business grant”, not “money”. She talked about money twice. I talked about a business grant repeatedly. She was suddenly suspicious of everything I said. She decided that using her computer to apply for a grant would harm her computer and how dare I ask to be alone in her house!
Note that I did nothing harmful to Status Sellout or any of her possessions. My crime was asking her to give me the same friendship I had given her. As her friend, I helped Status Sellout in the various ways she needed to be helped. Because I thought we were equal, I asked her to help me in the way I needed to be helped. But in her mind, Status Sellout had changed my status from equal to inferior. I don’t know what prompted the change. My request that she treat me the same way I treated her was an threat to her new feelings of superiority. I ignored previous evidence of this status change because I did not want to believe it was true.
Status Sellout puts hay bales around her house every autumn to keep her house warmer. Every spring she has to figure out ways to get rid of those hay bales. In the spring of 2018, I asked Status Sellout for four hay bales to use as mulch. She had given me hay bales in the past. I would go to her house where she did the heavy work getting the hay bales to my car and into my trunk. The hay bales were too heavy for my back. I would drive home immediately after she put the last hay bale in my car. Pulling the bales out of my trunk was easier than lifting them into my trunk. I put the bales on my hand truck to move them where I needed them.
The last time Status Sellout gave me hay bales, she told me to help her throw pieces of hay bales as far as I could over a fence. She made me pay for the hay bales she wanted to get rid of with physical labor. She didn’t care that throwing pieces of hay bales over the fence would leave me in pain. Since she had decided I was inferior to her, I no longer deserved to take any of the hay bales she did not want without somehow paying for them.
I feel pain in my back every single day and in my hips frequently. I don’t talk about my pain because no one wants to hear about how much pain I feel every single day. Status Sellout is one of the few people who has any idea about how much pain I feel. The last year I took care of her husband, I had to wear a back brace to get through each morning and evening shift. Even with the back brace, I would feel intense pain. Status Sellout knew this.
Status Sellout certainly had the right to say no to my using her computer. She went much further by waging a personal vendetta against me. She set about destroying relationships I had with other people. A woman I met through community activities years before I met Status Sellout no longer speaks to me. Status Sellout knows both of us. Status Sellout made certain that the community activity woman would stop speaking to me. She took revenge on me for thinking I deserved the same friendship I gave to her.
The day Status Sellout made me pay for the hay bales with physical labor, we talked about the trip she was taking the next week. Status Sellout had yet again asked me to be alone in her house so I could take care of her plants and her pet. I keep a daily journal, so I can prove this. Status Sellout sold out our friendship by deciding I was less than equal to her. Even so, she still trusted me to be completely alone in her house.
Because I know that Status Sellout is telling lies about me, you can read the text of my last email to her. See the link below. It was my last direct communication with her. I will happily forward my email to any of her friends to prove that Status Sellout is telling lies about me. They should know what she’s capable of doing to them. Status Sellout has already set them up for embarrassment if they repeat her lies to people who have read this web page.
The personal care for Status Sellout’s husband required frequent pushing, pulling, and stretching. My thumbs began to hurt two or three years into that job. As with my back, I wore braces on my hand while doing my job work. Years later, my thumbs still hurt when I do too much with my hands. They don’t hurt at all when I have enough money to buy a certain supplement.
Noses In The Air Nonprofit
Over a period of years, several staff members of a nonprofit forced a variety of failures on volunteer me, at times with rudeness to my face. Other volunteers talked about staff rudeness. This is the most revealing complaint:
“It really bugs me that some people puff out their chests, stick their noses in the air,
and treat you like you are pond scum.”
This nonprofit has lost volunteers because of its rude and abusive behavior towards volunteers, including me. Volunteering for this nonprofit’s big yearly event used to be a highlight of my year. That highlight no longer exists for me.
One Spinal Injury, Many Failure Enforcers
Failure enforcers take action against people who threaten to make their lives less comfortable. Because of my spinal injury, I asked people to change their thinking and actions to fit my needs. Change was too uncomfortable for many of them.
My pelvis began moving backwards when I was 12 years old. Every single job I’ve ever had was harmful to my body. Some jobs were worse than others, but all of them hurt me.
Across the decades of my life, dozens of people had the influence, ability, or resources to ease my pain. When I asked them to change their thoughts and actions to ease my pain, most of them chose to protect their own comfort. It was far more comfortable to ignore what I said than to listen to what I said. Listening to what I said would require them to take new actions. To protect their own comfort, these people expected me to ignore my reality.
“Go out and get a job.”
“Stop being emotional.”
“Work on long term solutions.”
(…long term solutions that satisfied the speaker’s comfort,
not any solution that would release the tension in my spinal cord
and move my pelvis back into place.)
In other words, they decided I should have acted as if my pelvis was in place even when it was out of place. I should have acted as if my spine had an S curve even when it didn’t have an S curve. I should have acted as if my hips never shifted out of place even when they did shift out of place. Anything else disturbed their comfort.
“Go out and get a job” came from a woman who had previously told me she believed in me career efforts.
“Stop being emotional” came from a physical therapist who decided I was being hostile to her. A doctor sent me for a functionality test to determine if I qualified for Social Security disability benefits. I explained the history of my pain to the physical therapist. The pain was not bad at first, so I kept doing everything. The pain only worsened until I couldn’t sit or stand normally. When the physical therapist told me I would have to carry increasingly heavy weights up and down a hallway, I burst into tears. From my perspective, the physical therapist had just explained how she was going to torture me. To protect her own comfort, the physical therapist told me I was being hostile to her. She said that my pain was emotional and if I just kept doing what hurt, the pain would go away.
“Work on long term solutions” came from my second sister, who lived in a different state and had no children of her own. I had asked her for a $400 loan. She told me she would take my daughter for two or three months during the school year so I could “work on long term solutions.” She meant I should to stop being emotional and go out and get a job. How dare I threaten her comfort by asking her to pay attention to the details of my life! A retired friend of mine who had watched me cope with back pain for years lent me $400 the following day. Would I let my daughter live with my second sister for two or three months so my second sister could ignore what my daughter said about herself? Of course not. I never spoke to my second sister again.
After finally getting the correct diagnosis and treatment for my spinal injury, the pain in my spine is gone. I now feel pain in my back and hip muscles. They have to relearn how to work the way they were meant to work in my body. It’s slow going because every day I have to do things that are too much for those muscles. My hips still shift out of place. My vertebrae also shift out of place. Every day I do stretches and can feel my hips and vertebrae shift back into place. The shifts themselves can hurt a bit. Some of the shifts are thunks that I can hear. Once in awhile, three vertebrae shift back into place one right after the other.
My out of place pelvis and no S curve spine made sitting and standing normally painful. How many ways could you earn money if sitting and standing normally hurt so bad you couldn’t bear it?
I tried unusual ways to make money. All of my attempts to earn money were legal. The responses to my efforts to pay my bills somehow brought a variety of negative responses from other people. None of the people who responded negatively lived a single second of my life. They judged my actions according to their lives, not mine. They would never condescend to do such shameful employment. Lucky them. They had a choice. I never had a choice.
Mistakes Failure Enforcers Make
Because failure enforcers are focused on feelings, threats, wrongs, and comfort, they fail to see the big picture. Failing to see the big picture, they make several mistakes.
Thinking that everyone else in the world would see me the same way they did.
~ I am on the verge of launching a global business, Better Planet Business. I already have my first members lined up. My subscriber list includes small business owners from Central African Republic, England, Germany, Lithuania, Poland, and Russia.
I am at this point because of the people who see me for who I am.
Thinking they could force failure on me without any consequence to themselves.
~ Each failure enforcer invited everyone around them to force failure on them.. Do unto others as you would have others do unto you. The women who forced failure on me invited all men to force the same failure on them. Why should men give equality to women who create inequality? Equality between men and women will follow equality between women.
~ One failure enforcer supervisor at the lying culture company stereotyped a company client negatively. An important renewal event came up for that client months after that supervisor fired me. I wrote letters to two stakeholders about the renewal event to stop the negative stereotype from continuing. I provided evidence of how the failure enforcing supervisor had wrongfully stereotyped the client. One of the stakeholders had community influence. The other stakeholder had personal influence. The personal influence stakeholder contacted the company about the stereotyping. Do you suppose the company continued to employ the failure enforcer who publicly made the company look bad?
~ In deciding I was too old be successful, both Community Banker and Stereotyping Supervisor made themselves look bad. They both demonstrated their ignorance of the business world:
“In a 2015 report by the Bureau of Labor Statistics, people 65 and up had the highest
self-employment rate of any age group. The report credits this rate to accumulated
business knowledge along with access to capital to start a business.”
My accumulated knowledge is about turning tragedies into triumphs. My own struggles and successes formed the strategies I used to launch Better Planet Business. My research into how the founders of the Energy Fair created spectacular success told me that the best way to be successful myself was to create success for others. My efforts to create success for others will create global success for me.
~ After the noses in the air Nonprofit became abusive to a volunteer friend of mine, I contacted sponsors for the Noses In The Air Nonprofit to let them know about staff rudeness. One of those sponsors and I are in a continuing conversation about the rudeness.
Assuming I could never do anything to negative to them.
~ I have written about a number of these forced failures on my websites and blogs. Enough people will eventually recognize who’s who in my writings to create discomfort in the failure enforcers’ lives. The failure enforcers will likely feel discomfort just wondering who identified them as failure enforcers. Those failure enforcers likely forced failure on other people as well. Their other victims could become suspicious about the failure enforcers. They could create failure for the failure enforcers.
~ Just going about my own business can mean revealing the negative truth about failure enforcers. During a meeting with my business consultant, he suggested I apply for a grant. The grant was being offered by Stereotyping Supervisor’s nonprofit. I told my consultant about Stereotyping Supervisor. His mouth dropped open in astonishment.
~ Community Banker in particular faces consequences for the rest of his life. I will write about his willingness to risk children’s lives in every possible way I can think of. Several people already know who he is.
Assuming that the circumstances of my life could never change.
I prefer a world where people are equal. Failure enforcers prefer a world where people are separated into different levels. They create rules by which they assign people to those different levels. An economic rule would put people in poverty at the bottom with people in wealth at the top. I was poor for decades. Do you suppose I will remain poor as the owner of a global business? In their world of separate levels, the failure enforcers’ own rules elevate me above them.
Listening to a failure enforcer while saying nothing is an invitation. You give the failure enforcer and everyone listening permission to force failure on you. If someone waged a vendetta against you, would you like listeners to speak up for you? Do unto others as you would have others do unto you. The statements below are invitations to bystanders to stop vendettas against you:
I wander what the situation was.
Are you talking about her/him the way you want other people to talk about you?
I’ll have to reserve judgment until I hear his/her side of the story.
Did you know that kindness provides the most reliable momentary increase in well-being?
Did you know that women who support other women are more successful?
These statements give bystanders reasons to trust you. Positive invitations are important because you never know which bystanders will be able to bring unforeseen success into your life. This KindSpring link tells the story of an unemployed woman who spoke up for a homeless woman with her actions, and the reward of a job she received from a bystander.
Full-Blown Failure To Prevent Forced Failure
Full-blown failure is the failure other people intentionally create for you because you intentionally create failure for them. My writings about failure enforcers is the failure I intentionally create for them because they intentionally create failure for me. They invited me, and I accepted. The first difference is that they used their feelings and thoughts to intentionally create failure for me. I use their own words and actions to intentionally create failure for them.
The second difference is in our intent. Their intent is to keep me in the place they stereotyped me into. My intent is to stop them from forcing failure on anyone else. I particularly want to prevent Community Banker from risking anyone’s life again, particularly children’s lives
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